Today you will learn a tarot method that can provide you with solutions to any difficulties or challenges in your life. To begin this method, shuffle the cards and spread them as you learned in yesterday’s lesson. Then close your eyes and imagine your situation. As you view the situation with your inner eye, you should feel some emotion. There is a place in your body where you feel the emotion of this situation. Where is it? Once you locate the place where you hold the emotional energy of the situation, close your eyes and imagine that you travel down inside your body to that area. Once you are at the location in your body, view the energy and assign it a color and a shape. Imagine that you project yourself into this color/shape and then immediately open your eyes and draw one of the major arcana cards from the cards spread out before you.
The card you have chosen represents the approach you should best take to resolve the problem situation.
The major difficulty or challenge in my current life is my employment status. On the one hand, I need a job badly. On the other…I really don’t tackle finding employment the way I should. I’m terrified of so many thing–massive change, losing my friends and my community, starting over, rejection, worthlessness–that I’ve not been pursuing it as I ought to be, and it’s causing me some major headaches. In fact, as I tried to feel my emotion in my body, I instantly developed an excruciating headache right between my eyes, and I instantly give it the shape and color of those yellow cartoon stars that always appeared whenever there was a fight on the old Batman television show with Adam West in the title role.
The card I drew was the Heirophant, which knocked me over given Wood’s negative associations with the card. As we’ve discussed, it means “Conformity” for her–a repressive conformity like captivity, servitude, or empty ritual; the concern for form over function and a desire to hold onto old things, even if they are outdated. It’s also a desire to control others or a position in which you have allowed yourself to be controlled by others.
My attitude towards finding a job has certainly privileged my desire to hold onto old things and has held me hostage in my own life. I don’t have control anymore: I’m dictated to by my housemates, by my dwindling bank account, and by the whims of my family. And I suppose the Hierophant is also the key to digging myself out of the mess: conform to the stereotype of the hungry job applicant. If I play the part, I’ll still be doing something to help my situation.